new day

Whew! Ok, so I'm feeling a lot better than I was over the weekend. That was a really rough one.

I, being analytical in nature, am trying to figure out what's made today better. So I can replicate it (silly me; like that'll work). I went to church on Sunday, just for the singing part of things. And though I don't really want to yet make this a habit (see previous blogs), the worship/singing part was really good. I felt a little more reconnected with my Maker.

Also, I blogged (obviously). I felt almost immediately better after that. I guess I really need to just keep writing. To get it all out. Catharsis and all that.

And then there's the unpredictable hormones. I just have to realize I have no control in this area and sometimes the pregnancy is going to kick my butt. It's good to know that the crazed emotions won't last the entire 9 months. This time it was just 3 or 4 days.

Last night nearly killed the good mood I had going yesterday when I talked with a certain family member. I don't know why I try. When she's in her manic, even a simple conversation is ridiculous. Only one of us is actively listening while the other is too much in her own head and problems to really care.

But, then I went and had a GREAT talk with my awesome husband for an hour or so, and felt less like my ideas and feelings were crazy and alien. Thanks, Love.

Today it's snowing, which is just like Wisconsin. At this point, though, we all want spring to just get here. I'm tired of the cold. My spirit is tired of the cold. My bones are cold and need thawing.